Thankfully, I have the internet to unleash my inner fangirl. And what makes the internet far more interesting is that I can easily find communities/groups that share the same passion as I do. So fangirling is not really an issue for me, at least if I’m online.

But it’s very different when I’m back in reality.

Have you done it before? Accidentally fangirled in public?

It’s not that I’m ashamed that I’m a bibliophile and an otaku. I think my friends and family know I like these things (ok, not just ‘like’ but LOVE these subjects in a whole other dimension). I’m not really afraid to tell people that I’m very passionate about it (but I don’t volunteer this information unless it’s brought up). But sometimes, when I’m out and suddenly see my favorite book out so early or find a rare manga copy (or it’s on sale, especially on this occasion), I can’t help but to release my excitement. But seeing as I’m in a public place and I’m a very timid person who, as much as possible, does not want to attract unnecessary attention, I have remedied that on-the-spot must-fangirl moment. I have mastered the art of inner squeeing.

I hold the book, flip the back, and stare at it. Then stare some more. Check the spine. If the book is unwrapped, I look at the pages. Once more, I stare at it before I head to the counter. Oh yeah, while I’m doing that, my face is probably showing various expressions of amusement. Hey, I can’t help but smile, that’s my inner fagirling leaking from its containment. I also carry the book with care, and when there’s no one around, I bear-hug it like a beloved toy.

If I’m reading about an amazing moment and I’m outside, inner squeeing is a must. If I have my phone, I’ll probably ramble on Twitter. Some book/manga moments deserve to be celebrated on the spot, but seeing as I’m in public, I have to keep the squeeing to a minimum. (She doesn’t want a repeat of that incident when I gasped out loud and received weird stares from strangers.)

When the coast is clear (and by that I mean I’m home). I’ll probably gonna share my joy with my sister and gush over and over. And then I go to the internet. Because nothing beats expressing oneself and how one feels to everyone who understands. Right, fangirls/boys?

How about you? Do you fangirl in public? Or, like me, are you shy and have decided to inner squee as well? Share your experience with me.