As I get reacquainted with my old fandom, I realize that I never said goodbye to them. I might take a long break, but to seal the lid permanently is not something I do when I feel that I’m not completely over it. And I’m a sentimental person, so letting go is difficult. I don’t know; maybe in the back of my mind I already knew that whatever I’m feeling right now is just temporary and closing doors isn’t the right thing to do. I only say I’m taking a break. Never telling it’s over…until I know it really is.

Thinking about it, it’s quite a feat being in these fandoms for some decade and others for more than that (yes, I’m old! (And it’s rude to ask a woman her age, so shush!). As I was saying, it feels great. It means I can keep up with things I like with the knowledge that I might keep them for years to come. I’m not one who jumps on a new bandwagon and easily ditches it once I’m not into it anymore. Like I said before, I’m not into trends; I care less about them and often think of myself (oh, maybe I’m selfish by nature, too, LMAO). Usually, I think it over and over before I do it. I want to invest in something I know I’ll be doing for the long haul. And I know it’ll stay for a while if I fully dedicate myself to it. I don’t like wasted effort. I’m lazy, so if I’m going to spend my energy on something, I want to be in it because I love it, not because I just love it now.

I’m not sure how I know that I love something, but I also know when my mind is fiercely set on it (and let me tell you, my mind has an uncanny ability to hatch unnecessary and silly ideas). I thought at first that my book blog was just a silly idea for me. But I didn’t know it would grow like this. I’m quite satisfied with my accomplishment. I’m successful in my own way. Being popular is not my goal and never will be. I just want to share, silently at first, but I have gained beloved readers and eventually bookish friends. So really, it’s a winner, and I’m thankful I pushed through with this idea. Maybe because I have a feeling it’s for the long run? LOL

Haha, I sounded so emo. Nope, not going anywhere, and I’m planning to review tomorrow (got you!). I just realized that devoting time to things like a blog should be something you need to think over and over again. Hey, I’m not saying it should be for a lifetime (like hell, I will know that), but is it nice to know it has years under its belt? Yes, yes? And I know that sometimes things get in the way. Optimism might run dry, but if you’re fully into it, then it’s an investment worth taking.

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How about you? Do you think that your hobbies and interests, such as your book blog, are something you’ll do in a while (and by a while, I mean years)? How was the decision for you? Like to share it with me!