The month of February was kinder to me. Not a lot happened, and most days were just filled with my usual routine. It was pretty chill: both in vibes and in weather 🫧🤍 (which I’ll greatly miss once the dry season starts). My anxiety wasn’t completely gone, but the episodes were fewer than last month. For that, I am grateful. 🙏🏻

I’m praying for a much better March, but for that to happen, I need to keep myself calm and do my best to chase away all the doubts and negative thoughts.

Life Lately

• Back to working out. All the panicking and health anxiety symptoms kept me from making progress, but I started doing cardio workouts again. The day after resuming, my entire body was sore, but after a few days, I adapted. My breathing and heart rate are better now. I’m happy. I’m happy with this progress.
• New show, new obsessions. I recently shared my new favorite contemporary webtoon series. I’m at that phase of my life where adult stories feel more fascinating than high-energy young characters. Maybe I just relate more now? But that doesn’t mean I’m not into them anymore. Case in point: My mom and I just finished Study Group, and I’m happy to say it was a well-developed live-action adaptation. And that’s huge! I don’t give my thumbs up to just any LA! Super good series.
• Falling behind on my traditional journal. One month in, and I flopped again. My digital journal is up to date, but I realized even writing feels hard now. My hands get tired so easily, and I haven’t been writing long sentences for almost two decades? Typing is just more my vibe now. Oh well, I’ll have to figure this out. It’s sad, but I guess my journal journey will have a new entry about this struggle?
• No Valentine’s date, and that’s okay. I’ve accepted that I’m going solo until the top of my head is gray. I think I’ve forsaken the idea of romance in real life. I’m perfectly happy with my fictional couples—they make me feel what it’s like to be loved! So, I spent Valentine’s pretty normally, but not without sweets! Oh, and a costume for my fur baby!

March Agenda

• Preparing for something. You know me—plans are always hush-hush for now. I’m looking into things and have some errands to run. I need to check if it’s possible and if I have enough money for it. For now, I’m carefully drafting, budgeting, and deliberating.
• Blogging more, maybe? I posted two new blog entries last month, and I’m quite happy about it. I know I should stick to TL;DR versions, but not to speak out? Never been my style! So when something pops up, I just write. I could do a Twitter thread, but I always have too much to say. And honestly, it’s cathartic to put my thoughts down.
• Continuing my mental health journey. Journaling. Writing down anxious thoughts. Exercising. Taking vitamins. Listening to anxiety podcasts. And of course, praying. I’m doing my best to get out of this funk. I know I’m healthy. I know I’m okay. I need to trust my body—that it’s doing its best. My cells are working, and all my medical records affirm that I’m fine. I am okay.

Let us all spend some wonderful and productive time this March. ☕🍪🤎🧸