Life’s been a bunch of lemons lately. I’m a ball of anxiety, obsessing over this one issue that’s got me spiraling. The thought of making a decision about it sends my mind into overdrive. August was definitely not my month, but I’m trying to distract myself because, unfortunately, this anxiety seems to be sticking around.

So yeah, life lately.

• My mind keeps coming up with all these worst-case scenarios. I’ve been obsessing over every little detail to try and calm my anxiety. Sometimes it helps, sometimes it doesn’t, but it always feels like I’m stuck in this vicious cycle of overthinking. These intrusive thoughts are super intense and make me anxious every single time. I’ve talked to people about it, but I honestly can’t figure out their intentions. They act like it’s no big deal, yet they’re pushing something that feels huge to me. I’m left feeling totally confused. Am I really just making a mountain out of a molehill?
• Anyway, I just hope things get better. I’m praying for it. These major anxiety episodes even got me back to journaling. I just need to get these thoughts out of my head. Even if writing doesn’t fully relieve the pressure, it’s nice to have somewhere to put them.
• That’s why I’ve been reading so much this month. I even picked up some old favorites and reread them because, like I said, knowing what’s going to happen is really comforting. There’s something reassuring about a predictable outcome, which is why I’m such a big advocate for rereading. It’s like revisiting those amazing moments, knowing exactly what’s coming.

September Agenda

• Honestly, I just want to get this sorted. It’s not healthy to be stuck in these thoughts all the time. I want relief! I want that sense of boredom and the simplicity of my routine, without intrusive thoughts hijacking whatever I’m doing. If things don’t improve, I guess I’ll have to face the music.
• It’s September, and usually, I’d be excited about the holidays coming up, but this anxiety is such a mood breaker! But I know God’s got my back, though.
• I’m really praying for a better month ahead. August went by in a blur, but I spent most of it brooding over these thoughts. 😮‍💨 Oh well, let’s think positive! Everything’s going to be okay.

Wishing everyone a beautiful and blessed September! 🌻🧸🍂✨